|
single |
i realise i like to use single words for my blog titles. ohswell. i guess its just a bad habit i picked up from we-all-know-who.
heartache. feels so damn heavy, it does. i've lost ALL of my blood and sweat to some bloody system error that ebloggy refuses to clear up. it just ain't fair. everything in there was the purest, clearest i've ever had, and now poof! gone. completely. sure, i ought to change that one recurrent theme of mine. then again, thoughts capture not part but all. there's no escaping it.
sometimes, it's just so apt. single. as in solitary, lonely. not that i'm feeling particularly so.just went to ps with kh today, and we met loads of people while trying to shop. i know, i know, i'm being exploited, at the same time i'm getting myself into the usual shit that i hate. i hate being linked up like an item. a thing. just not with feeling, like as if the world looks out only for facades. look into my eyes, look and not glance. see it. see it for yourself. there's only sympathy and a soft spot i keep for old friends. nothing else. because the soul is not in my eyes now. no matter how happy i am, i see matter, not soul. i want it back. soon i shall.
val's day coming. guess it'll be the first one i spend single for all these time. kinda unbelievable how i managed to have a person spend that much time with me. haha.. i do feel free. no strings, no fuss. no soul. well, there's always a down side. i'll ignore it.
single in my mindset, single in my aim, single in the things i see. single in my thoughts, single in my being.
single in my song, single in my piece.
yet, there's warmth in singularity. i see so much more, so clearly. i see the problems, i anticipate them. i see faucets i don't like, i see bumps and creeks.
but i see.
and you might not.
i see my friends. i see my foes.
i might fall, but i'll not stay. i'll move on.
it takes time.
focus.
single.
posted by sarangaia || 5:05 AM Friday, February 11, 2005
|
0 Comments:
Post a Comment
Subscribe to Post Comments [Atom]
<< Home