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sad |
i guess we all know why. strange, isn't it? seems like everytime we use that song for syf, something will go wrong. for the seniors, it was the finals. for this batch of juniors, it was the honours. then again, it still holds special significance to me, despite everything. still feel close to tears everytime i play/hear the song. it just has this ability to touch people. i guess thats why the few of us are so crazy over it.
was really sad when i heard about the news. they really had their hearts set on getting the honours. heard that a lot of people cried, the news from my friends, seniors, and even my present conductor. this is going to sound stupid, but i cried too. it felt like as if i never graduated, that i'm still part of them, and when people started asking, suddenly the tears came. i just know that feeling too well. disappointment. especially when you've worked really hard. my heart goes out to them. i believe they really put their heart and soul into this. i really don't know what to say. nothing i say will make things right. things won't change. they'll still have to live with this fact. but really.. you guys tried your best. put this behind you and continue to pursue the best. in music, things like this happen. there will be times when you don't get what you think you deserve. but underneath all that, we still know we are an excellent orchestra. believe in it.
to eldds.. that was unexpected. i think the el members must feel even worse. take it easy.. don't be too sad. sometimes its things like this that make victory even sweeter. two years down the road, when el gets the gold it deserves, everyone will feel better than before. jia you everyone!!
SYF is coming up for me too. looking at all these turns of events, sometimes i wonder... but i'll try my best, even though its getting really tiring now. all the practices coupled with differences in ideaologies with a particular supposed friend who makes me feel like giving him a good kick in his pants.. tiring.
to all feeling blue/sad/down due to competitions, cheer up!
posted by sarangaia || 10:48 PM Saturday, April 23, 2005
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Project task: New Perspectives
As the young in our country become increasing fashion conscious, there is an rising group of people who resort to not eating to achieve what they perceive as the perfect figure. Hence, for this project, I would like to focus on why and how people go to the extent of emotional eating, why they behave in such a way towards food, and to understand the impact of emotions on eating. In so doing, I would like to come up with a programme, based on such methods of willing one to eat, to help anorexics change their mindset towards food, to help ease them into the routine of eating once again. It is in my area of interest to conduct a detailed study on how best to help anorexics regain their appetite for food without going to the extremes of force-feeding, by using psychological methods that people without eating disorders respond to by eating. This would be largely beneficial to anorexics as they have to first cope with their emotions before being able to change their perspectives on food. This is relevant to helping the group of people in our society who suffer from eating disorders.
Firstly, information on the eating habits of people will have to be gathered. To narrow down the research area, I would then gather information on dietary patterns of only teenagers of acceptable weight, as teenagers are more likely to be guided by their emotions to eat. These information can be found in books on nutrition, focused mainly on teenagers. Another valuable source of information on this topic would be websites such as http://weightloss.about.com/cs/emotionaleating/l/bleecues.htm which provide information on emotional eating.
Primary data of dietary patterns of teenagers will be collected through surveys, both dispatched manually and through email to our target group. Around 200-300 surveys can be done. Interviews with nutritionists and doctors on the needs of anorexics can also be carried out to provide an understanding of their needs and how best to modify such methods to suit them.
On the collection of data, the most pressing potential problem will be that of the refusal to divulge information with regards to one's dietary patterns and lying in surveys. This can be minimised by reassuring the survey taker that all information will be kept strictly confidential, and that this project is done on a solely educational purpose
Time management is imperative in this project, and this can be ensured by getting my group members to complete their tasks on time, with good quality, by means of constant reminders. The group must work hard and closely to ensure success of this project.
posted by sarangaia || 12:55 AM Monday, April 18, 2005
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PI |
if there's anything i've learnt so far, its that brilliance never comes when you need it.
pw is such a durned headache. PI is even worse. they say a few heads work better than only one. ain't it true. the only brilliant idea seems to be getting kind of unfeasible as time goes by. to hell with it. at this rate, i'll at most submit another PI. no biggie. i wish. he's right, you know. pw is hell of a nuisance.
no time to blog. or should i just say, darned lazy to do it. wish we'd have a proper classroom instead of worrying all the time about getting to places on time. worse yet, not knowing where to go. the aj timetable is just the pits for newcomers. why can't they ensure that the timetable is error free before distribtuing it? not knowing where to go is just a pain in the ass. oh well. i can only say i don't see the advantages of the homeroom sysem, apart from keeping me awake. at least we get to move around.
life with the not-so-significant is the pits. the friction's getting to me. no biggie. i just ignore. both person and thoughts.
co life is well, as usual. apart from the occasional times when i don't know whether to laugh, cry, or just bury my head in my hands. how can anyone be SO DENSE??
haha.. roll on next week.
posted by sarangaia || 1:17 AM Sunday, April 17, 2005
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exhuasted |
such a tiring week. the weekend's worse.
not that i think the homework's too much. in fact, compared to what i had the last 4 years, this can be considered as a walk on the clouds. its just a couple of readings and tys and writings a day. back then this was considered once in a blue moon.
but i end real late everyday. have no time to leisure read, practise. worse, no sleep. i get seven hours, tops. that's really.. little.
yesterday really tired me out. was intending to have a field day, going back and visiting them. my mom just had to make it such that i had a bad day. i told her ages in advance, and she chose the morning to give me a chewing out. not only did she put words in my mouth, she also said some really nasty stuff. i just wanted to see them for the 1st and probably last time before syf. i just wanted to make sure they were ok and having fun. i just wanted to see my juniors living for the moment i lived for in the past. she didn't have to tell me in such expicit and hurtful terms that i wasn't to. had she told me nicely, i would have gone for practice too.
couldn't help the tears when kh called to ask me if i was going. i scramed out of the house fast. when i met seokz and she asked me the same thing, the tears came hard and fast, for real. the crying sort of subsided when i reached school, but when rich saw me and asked why i didn't go... i don't know. i suppose i was feeling sensitive. wasn't in the right frame of mind for practice. stayed in the room for the whole of shan chun. was comforted.
when quanny asked me that too, i came dangerously close to breaking down again. i was really exhuasted. chose to go out with the xy peeps to pastamania, even though i was really not up to it, my body cells mass protesting, for a deep sleep. glad i went. they made me smile. i felt happy.
thankful for the way my body works. everytime i finish crying, i'll be so exhuasted i push away everything, and sleep. when i wake, i can't relive the emotions that made me upset pronto. my mind just blocks it from me. slowly, sure, but my mind doesn'y allow for me to get upset immediately again.
its not that i don't love ajco.. its just that i don't have the kind of affectionate memories i have of rv.
posted by sarangaia || 9:56 PM Saturday, April 09, 2005
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life |
so tired i can barely keep my eyes open now. doesn't help that this FAR is air conditioned.
ups and downs lately. ups mostly in cca, downs in and out of class. seems that cca is the only place i'm always happy at. still juggling between one and two (for those into this, i struck the old number one off the list and pushed two and three up to become one and two). the old number one went out because i couldn't stand the thought of being reminded of him all the time. makes me sort of sad.
can't believe that i'm in the same school with the tall one. seems to me that bad luck follows. its not like it was so great having him in my class last year.
a bit sick of being taken for granted by some people. true, i'm in a good mood most of the time, but not all the time. i have very limited patience. don't repeat history, or i'll have no choice. i won't be able to take that expression for much longer without blowing up. i'm serious. hope you get the hint. i can't cope with fluctuating emotions all the time, everyday. i'm really tired. i only want pure friendship, minus everything else. i can be there, listen.. but don't go overboard.
luckily there's always that two people who guarantee a big "OH MY GOSH" and at least 35 seconds of a megawatt smile. then again, there's qianz too, and seokz, tingz... soooo many people. and there are 10 others in the school, scattered everywhere.
quote yeda.. "aww..same drowning myself in them everyday and reminding me not to get distracted =P haha jc rocks man.." maybe i don't remind myself to not get distracted. but all else fits the bill. miss ya loads, da!
posted by sarangaia || 10:53 PM Wednesday, April 06, 2005
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slept late as usual because of a phone call. had a wierd dream.
no. 3 was doing nothing in the dream.. prancing around doing nothing. the setting was a concert. amazing thing was that ajco played liang zhu. remember everything except the significant other. but everything was comfortable.
got a new phone. dad surprised by going all out. now i know better.:)
lunched with two people i never thought i would, together. i mean, that was a wierd combi. haha, but lamism is the way to go.
i suppose sometimes i should thank the heavens for blessing me with the ability to write. i mean, not that i write well, but i'm at least coherent, ain't it so? its extremely soothing to be able to put it all down and see it.
by the way, the three of them said the same thing again. no, i'm not doing anything. as usual.
cheerios!
posted by sarangaia || 11:23 PM Saturday, April 02, 2005
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