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things are often coincidental. a few years ago i wouldnt have thought this was even possible, given that i was a stuttering, shaky little girl who broke out into cold sweat even when it was only my fingers which did all the talking. so much has happened since then, and of course there was the history (or lack of history for that matter) with T, which resulted in my present philosophy of life - never take risks, because they just culiminate into hurt at the end of it all. ok, i'm starting to sound like a riddle. that comes with not wanting to name people. haha.
the whole point of this is that i dreamt of this person from really long ago. this someone really made my life quite colourful and fun back then. i remember the days like as if it was yesterday, much more clearly than my craziness with T, which is just a big blur to me now (even though i'd tried so hard to remember every moment. i guess the more you try to make yourself remember, the more you forget). this person runs in a completely different circle from me now, but things have this incredible way of creeping up to me that never fails to amaze me everytime. waking up from my dream, i shrugged it off until my dear lead character in my dream decided that it was a good time to contact me there and then, in the virtual world of reality (yes, i love word games. go figure). amazingly coincidental. and amazingly great. i'd forgotten how easy it was to laugh without burden, how endearing it is to have a person who remembers everything you did so clearly, to have a person who remembers you fondly and misses you sometimes in the course of the different lifes that we now lead, to have a person who knows exactly what to say at the right time, to have a person who knows me, the real me from the beginning and not the me i hide under my numerous politically correct masks to survive in the cutthroat world of complicated adolescent relationships. sure, this person might have had a fair share of quarrels with me, but it was really all in the name of fun. things were so much simpler then, so uncomplicated. two minutes after quarrelling, everything was well again and we were the best of friends again, tearing off after each other screaming in delight. and i realised something. i've lost the innocence of youth. i've become tainted and soiled by age, become part of the society that retains none of the purity of youth. but redemption exists. in lasting friendships, in friends who never forget you and your strengths.
i'm glad that this someone decided to appear at this moment, and made me smile, laugh as i used to.
有人哄的感觉真好。고마워 진구야. 사랑해!
posted by sarangaia || 8:14 AM Wednesday, November 28, 2007
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