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well, since Wing requested, i shall update. really havent had the heart to blog for quite a while, it just gets so tiring at times.
well, my life is supposed to be in pretty bad shape now, but somehow i'm turning out fine, more so than i expect myself to be. which kind of scares me, because i have no idea, really no idea if i'm just bottling everything up, or that i'm really ok. mom's found a sudden lump in her breast, a big one. the doctors are still doing lab tests to determine if it is beign or maglinant. he says that usually lumps like this that appear suddenly should be... bad news, the c-word which i dont even want to mention. i am worried, but kind of seem to be in denial. life goes on, and its kind of numbing, dulls my senses, and i live in the illusion that everything is ok. i dont want friday to come. its D-DAy, the day when the report comes out.
just dumped all the crap to poor Wing, who has to take over my mess of being an SL. to say the truth, i love xianyue 05,06. without them, i really don't know how i'll remember to smile, crack jokes... i just have to be there for them, which forces me to see things in a happpier mood. and they do put me in a happy mood. xianyue, the 17 of you, thanks for all the wonderful memories that have kept me going when i'm tired. Wei Ling, do a good job, and lead them to their gold next year!
I LOVE JISUNG!!! just watched save the last dance for me (zui hou zhi wu, airing on channel u now), and i completely fell in love with JISUNG (you guys would know him as Chi Chen, i believe). he's just so perfect in the drama. ok, the plot is mediocre, but the point is this drama has more of the leads being happy together than any of the other dramas, something that i really like. i want the feeling of romance to linger... but mom's pissed over my obsession with k-dramas and ordered that no one is to buy anymore k-dramas in this household. which means i have to wait until next year in uni before i dare buy it, without the fear of her throwing it out. sigh. i really like this one. save me.
so its true.. i have no idea.
posted by sarangaia || 8:11 AM Monday, July 17, 2006
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