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Danielwu |
an aura. those eyes. why have i never seen it? that coldness, that warmth, that feeling. why have i missed it? in missing comes regret, a satisfying emotion wrapping up any other that tells of inferiority and lack of confidence. such pity, sorrow on the role picked up, bringing to thine eyes tears that would never roll upon thou cheeks. love conveyed in thine eyes, hate, anger, joy, indifference.. a rolling pot of thoughts not to be forgotten shortly. smitten.
syf's tommorrow and i'm still worrying about undone work and my PI. god, i swear Pi's gonna be the death of me. syf.. wasn't really stressed in the beginning, but i'm starting to feel the heat now, esp since fukang decided to solve the problem of my gaohu's ma only yesterday. now i have a noisy instrument with loads of .. arh!!! forget it. mere talk is making me nervous. jittery. my only comfort is that he'll be there. i can finally see him.
pining. she was mentally prepared. she knew it would come. she knew she would miss, mourn and pine for the loss of that familarity, his aura. but it was proving more hard than she previously thought. no one could soothe that aching wound hidden in the dark, nothing was balm for her lonely soul. she was incomplete, missing out on the past, present, future. she still mourned, only now it wasn't purely for him. it was too, for the girl she had been. joyous, full of life. she was but a deflated, disillusioned balloon now. like an addict, she craved. but he never came. and she cried in the dark night.
nice one, wasn't that? i guess only at times like this am i able to write such stuff. frankly, i do miss that someone. no one can take that someone's place. it gets harder and harder to recover over that years, you know?
i want to go for syf. i want to see for myself. i have to. i have to steel myself. no matter what i see, i musn't cry. i must stay strong. i must keep to my promise. i must forget.
but oh... my poor heart.
i lie. i can't forget. and i know i won't
i really miss you..
so much.
will time ever turn back?
posted by sarangaia || 7:19 AM Monday, May 02, 2005
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1 Comments:
just wanted to say for syf... well done juniors~!
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